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Well, i havent had a real update & ive been thinking on a lot.. There are alot of people in this world who are unsaved, who dont know Christ Jesus.. He is the Son Of God who was crucified on the cross for our sins. When we accept him into our lives, we believe that happened & our sins are forgiven. Of course when you get saved, that doesnt mean your life will be all dandy and perfect. No not at all. We will still have conflicts and battles to face. But as of now, You have faith in God, and believe that he will get you out of the situation no matter how long it may take. You may not always have a prayer answered right away, but always remember God hasnt forgotten you..you are being processed. What i mean by being "processed", is you are becoming stronger in your walk with God. When we are being processed we often times suffer or have pain in our lives, which we often question "Why"? Why is this happening to me i dont understand. These are the times when we really use our faith In god, and tell him we believe he will lead us through this confusion & hard time, and pull us out stronger filled with knowledge. Jesus says "seek and you shall find"..We all want God to make a difference in our lives, to make us stronger, understanding, knowledgable, full of wisdom. But we cant just sit back and wait.. we must do our part. We must read our bible, do good, go after God & believe in his word. When we truely seek God with all our heart & believe in all that he is, God will do something incredible in your life. God loves us & he is merciful. Of course we are all human, and we may make mistakes.. we might lie, say something we shouldn't, etc. Thats why Jesus died on the Cross, so our SINS will BE forgiven. As I have observed, Ive learned from my mistakes.. these mistakes have made me see how wrong I was in that time & how now.. I am becoming more of Christ each day. It is an amazing experience to Know your creater, our Father in heaven. ONe other thing I must say.. The people we hang around, the things we watch, or listen to.. It does have a big impact in our lives.. why, because there are alot of things that satan does to try to blind us From God. You might think something is alright when its not without ever realizing it. Soon enough, you're doing things you shouldn't, which pulls you further away from God..soon enough, you've gone to far to the point to where most people don't want to come close to God, because they've grown prone to the habits they have now..its never too late to turn away! see thats why people wonder...why does god allow bad things to happen to us. He DoesNT allow it.. People have taken their OWN lives into their own hands, thinking they have total control, leaving God out. God wants to be apart of all our lives, but alot of people think they dont need God.. Well umm, why do u think your life is how it is nnow?.. Thats why Gods here..IN times of trouble, he keeps us strong, and tells us everything will be alright.. just when u feel like giving up dont. Be thankful of suffering, because suffering leads to perservernece! Which is when you feel like giving up, but u dont!..Keep close to God, and dont ever give up because of the people in the world, or even the world trying to take a tole on you trying to defeat you. As a christian, it is my duty to Be the light in this world to share the Gossple & The LOve OF CHrist. He is my life..if i didnt have him in my life.. my life would be nothing with a dark shadow over my head.. nothing but satan telling me im nothing, useless, i have no purpose..telling me i cant do anything right, etc. But NO. Ive turned my life over to Christ believing with my life, he is all I need. MY life has changed alot since then. Things make more sense,and Im becoming more like my Father. I'd hope you would get to know him as well..because he is love, patient, accepting no matter of how bad your life has been, forgiving, merciful, and Peace.
So take a minute and decided what is best in your life.. decide if you want to accept The most High God who loves you & waiting for your calling. He's there waiting. . God Bless everyone-
If anyone ever needs anything.. U can always comment me. Im always here* =) |
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Well its been quite a while since ive updated..well anyways, nothing really has happened..Ive been going to church as usually, watching myself grow in God and watching changes take place. Mom is pregnant so im going to be a Big sister! Im very excited. We've not determined whether its a girl or boy, but I think its a boy. Anyways, I went skateboarding for the first time last thursday, finally an opportunity to do my thing! Im going to take guitar lessons this week, im not sure when..hopefully on wednsday. Im single again. . I stayed single for 3 months, and i enjoyed it until i said yes to someone I shouldnt have. I knew that wouldnt last but hey i proved my point to him though, so thats cool. I suppose Im going to stay single for a lONG time, i mean really.. i dont need some guy to make me happy.. im at the point, Im independent amoung myself & more dependent on Jesus to be there for me rather then someone else. So Im greatful Im strong emotionally!! Anyways, i know this was short, but I have to finish up on some studying.. |
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Well today was Thanksgiving & It was great. I went to my grandmas house (moms mom) and we all ate and spent time together* Me and my uncle threw the football some afterwards, and watched the end Of "polar express" with my cousins. It was alright. Well, I went to my dads moms around 2:40. I went and ran down dads (literally) and said "hello, I love u" and then ran back up mamaws lol. She was asleep on the couch waiting for the Turkey to finish up I Suppose. She cooked while i pill potatoes, mash the potatoes. We had the desert and everything ready before hand. Well anyways, Kinsley and Aaron Came over around 5. Then My uncle, his g/f and Dad finally came. We blessed the Food & ate. My great grandpa showed up afterwards, but he didnt eat. He already ate with his g/f?. I went down to dads afterwards & I sent him some more food and Cleaned some, he's messy lol. I left around 6:30 and came back home. I worked out for about an hour and then I watched The life story Of Jesus. I read some and took notes in my bible, and I prepared something for Bible Club for Wednsday. It should be interesting. I cant wait. But this is all for now.
- I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. God Bless Everyone:. |
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* Well there is alot going on right now. Just another stage In life, that I must prepare for - * My family is doing great, my friends are the clostest thing to me right now, But God is in control. Ive been busy with school these past few weeks, but hey it's not going to get any easier or less. * Umm i do believe im going to get a job. Im not sure where to start at. I did have an idea, but I'm not sure now-
_* Im making sacrifices, all in all I know it's for the best*_
Umm, people like to gossip as Ive been told here lately, why I dont know.
What they make me out to be is a lie, but am I going to let that run me down? NO, are u for real? I know who I am, I am A child of God with imperfections and faults to be forgiven & If people can accept that, or deny my beliefs thats their choice, im not living up to their expectations but my own and Gods will*. No one is perfect so why people pick out faults on others or even dare lie about someone, i'll never know, but thats how most people are, a totally dif. story. We cant make anyone happy, we cant do anything to prevent gossip. So Move On and shrug it off. Just as I have. What a difference. So now.. I must watch my back & relate to what I know in all aspects. It is a cruel
world, and not everyone is going to be merciful. Well this is all i have to say. Here's a song * "Escalates" - Falling Up ( Good christian band ) =) This is everything that I wanted
Do you believe that I tried so hard to take it home
But never felt a single moment
Life has been a place where I've wandered
Moving slowly to understand what I can grasp
But understand that it's still not right So come back to me (he's always waiting) [Chorus]
I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
And can you hide it and never let go?
Come back to you, I only knew Lies have covered all of the smiles
And wakened thoughts that have turned my heart
To face the wind
And then fall to where I know I'll fit, but you
Do you believe that I wanted
Something other than fallen hearts that just
Belong
To places where the bridges give in Can you see what I felt when I told you
Can you cope when it runs right through you
Cause my heart it is broken with love that is
Coped
And now you tell me that I have something that's missing? |
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I really Feel as if i should Update about this- Most Teens dont even think twice when it comes to drinking. men who enact violence or abuse I have found that they tend to 'work themselves up' with these self-righteous, blaming and vengeful preoccupations. They 'intoxicate themselves' with a range of ideas, a range of attributions of blame, and give themselves a range of permissions to hurt other people, which this does occure in most cases. - Violence and abusive behaviour are the result of active choices which are informed by sequences of "self-centred" preoccupation, rationalisation and justification. These ideas and preoccupations are in turn informed by dominant cultural "ideals reflecting social needs," which relate to beliefs about entitlement, privilege and power and expectations of deference and submission from those regarded as inferior or of lesser status. I have tried to understand the association between violence and alcohol use. Many individuals who have been drinking heavily give themselves, and are given by others, a special kind of permission to act in irresponsible ways. A range of minimisations, justifications and excuses for irresponsible behaviour are available to them. The constructions of responsibility, when alcohol or drugs are involved, are quite different than in other circumstances. This is illustrated by expressions like: 'He's an angry drunk', 'When I'm drunk I lose it', 'I was drunk, I didn't know what I was doing'. We construct specific meanings and attributions of responsibility in the context of alcohol use. People who drink and abuse engage in a kind of redundancy thinking they often give themselves permission to engage in violence when they drink. Later, their behavior may be excused and tolerated by others because they were drunk as well. Constructions of responsibility inform and often determine the expressions of behaviors. If individuals believe, 'When I'm drunk I lose it', or 'I would never do that if I was sober', then that is exactly how they behave. The thinking is in the same sence. And the idea becomes the reality and usually repeatable. Many men are quite clear about their responsibilities regarding violence and respectful behaviour in relationships. They may drink alcohol and make respectful and responsible decisions about how, when, and where they drink and how they behave in those circumstances. Even within the lives of men who enact violence and alcohol abuse, there are generally many examples of times when they have been drinking and have engaged in responsible and respectful behaviour. They may be described as being violent only when they are drunk. However, when their "day-to-day" experiences are explored, it is generally shown they engage in patterns of vengeful and "self-righteous" thinking, and enact behaviors influenced by these ways of thinking, at times when they have not been drinking. Instead of explaining the association between alcohol use and violence in terms of a causal link, I am much more interested in exploring attributions of responsibility in the circumstances of violence and in the circumstances of alcohol abuse. *- This is an important topic we should ALL explore, and become "aware" of. For our own benefits & the benefits of others! So please, I ask everyone who reads this to reconsider if you've ever thought about drinking. IS it really worth it?? -* God Bless Everybody * |
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You know when u ask God to pull u through a tough situation, but he doesnt speak to you. Just remember this.. The teacher has prepared you all year for the big exam. He has given u the materials u need to pass it. But also remember "the teacher doesnt talk during the test, or help you" Because he has already given u what u need to pass it. The same way goes for God. God prepares us for what is to come. He gives us what we need inorder to get through a task life surprises us with. WHen the time comes for lifes test we will have all the material we need that Gods gave us. Also, in james (2:17-18) IN the same way, faith by itself, if it i snot accompanied by action, is dead. But someone will say, "you have faith: I have deeds. James (2-24), You se that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone. Did not even the Rahab the prostitute consider righteousness for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? "As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead". Another thing to think about. James (3:6) Well i have to go for Now, i really hope this helped someone!
God Bless Everybody * |
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Hahha! Yes I took them from yours "bungshwang" "Pull my finger Santa" "I'm hyper!" "bungshwang" "I'm a random person" "I can't stop coughin'" "Your drivin' me nuts here" "BURP!!!!" to the 15th power! "what've I done?""Your a nun?" "NO! I said what've I done." "1 and 2 and 3 and 4. Now repeat yourself girls! OK! =)" "Mr. Telephone man" |
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--------------Do not even such things as are most bitter to the flesh, tend to awaken Christians to faith and prayer, to a sight of the emptiness of this world, and the fadingness of the best it yield? Doth not God by these things (ofttimes) call our sins to remembrance, and provoke us to amendment of life? How then can we be offended at things by which we reap so much good?.... Therefore if mine enemy hunger, let me feed him; if he thirst, let me give him drink. Now in order to do this, (1) We must see good in that, in which other men can see none. (2) We must pass by those injuries that other men would revenge. (2) We must show we have grace, and that we are made to bear what other men are not acquainted with. (4) Many of our graces are kept alive, by those very things that are the death of other men's souls.... The devil, (they say) is good when he is pleased; but Christ and His saints, when displeased. |
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Well Last night I had my party for my B-day woop lol. Lets see. .Fatman, aaron and his little brother(which they dropped off fatman) blake, kaila, becky, Lyndsay, marshea, josh, alex, cody, nick, Maria, ashley, devin all stopped by. And delmar stopped by for a short hello, happy birthday, Bye lol. It was boring at first. Me and maria left for a minute to let me drive, we came back and then we rented movies (which didnt work because the dvd wasnt working) But anyways, we all ate food, alex and becky danced lol. Cody and Nick eventually skated off because of well, reasons. So me and sam practically ran from the house to the bottom of the road yelling trying to get them to come back. We didnt catch up with them so we cut through the neighbors yards and ended up getting pine needles stuck in our feet on the way home lol that was horrible.
WEll we ran back to the house, and I cant remember what happened then.
Well we all turned the lights out and decided to tell "spooky" stories lol.(Mat and james stops by during that and wishes me a happy birthday. That was nice =D)
Anyways, the only part we got to was about a deaf guy, barny, and the powerrangers haha. After that, i dared travis(fatman) to run barenaked down the road. Id pay him 10 bucks. Well, i was joking at first, but then that turned out to be a completely different story haha! But no worry, no one went bare.
When we all got back we all piled up in my room while travis looked through my closet??.. Yeah that was odd lol. Hmm after blake and travis left, marshea went to say goodbye to josh. Well, during that Leigha and sam went outside. I cant say why but sam ended up triping over a stump haha! I thought I heard something -
Kaila, becky, sam, leigha and I we all came back inside. Sam and kaila ended up on here while us three talked and watched movies. IT was nice to talk to them, I hope we get together like that again! =)
The last thing i remember from last night is me cleaning, talking to becky and leigha, then falling asleep for an hour or two. Then I woke up to becky saying shes choking on a rice crispy ! hahah! OMgosh that was funny.
I ended up waking up and coming in my room with everyone. Sam was asleep while everyone else was on the phone.
Well, me becky and leigha came in the living room and i fell asleep again for like 10 minutes. I ended up back on the love seat falling asleep while leigha talks to me lol.
I wake up today with becky on the couch, while im half way on/off the seat lol. Well, we all get up and we eat breakfast, go in my room, pile back up on the bed and just lay there staring at the ceiling lol. |
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I'll show my gratitude to all my friends, give thanks for their presents & be blessed by God. I find myself in a position where I can't look back or try starting over. I find myself often questioning why i do some of the stupid things that I do. Of course everyone can act funny or act out. But thats besides the point. I can look back at what I knew then and what I know now & put them both together to make a new outcome. At the same time, I watch and listen to others to observe their behaviors and lifestyles. It is often times questioned why people do what they do or say. We can't always have the answers to the question "why", & we may not always be able to recognize certain behaviors right off. We often times try to better ourselves because we see how people are & we know whats right in our hearts. But question yourself for a moment. Do you do whats right in yours? Or are we afraid of judgement of others, and the critisizm we get in response? For So long ive had difficulty, battling judgement of others & what they thought of me. But who are we to judge, when we make the same faults? We're all hypocrits if do. Plain and simple. We're only human, but lets think before we begin to "express" ourselves to the public eye, for our pasts can often times be brought up. I myself make mistakes. We all do. Sometimes we don't even know we are until its been pointed out by someone else. Of course, make sure its "corrective critisizm". Make sure its facts and not pointing a "randon say so".
We all have faults and its hard not saying anything without getting upset over someones own mistakes. Mainly because we've been there & we dont want to see others mess up or even fall under condemnation. I know I have battled with getting upset over other peoples mistakes, over what they do or mouth off about. But like i said before .. Who are we to judge. "Corrective critisize", let them know whats right and what isnt. People may not always listen to what you have to say, but it is their own decision. Pray about it and see that it will be delt with by God.
As of this point, our friends are our biggest influences, and they may not be the best. We can be pressured to do things or even say things inorder to fit in. But u cant always do that, there're always consequences that follow!
As I have learned, stick with your true friends the ones who will uplift you and bring you closer to christ. ( well that follows in on my behalf). But as for you all, you all know what is right, whats in your hearts & make that special effort to make a difference in your life. Time is short & precious make it the best that you can.
Sorry to cut this short but company is over here, and I need to put the food away -- |
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Shew well school. I have to be there in 10 minutes. Oh what fun lol. Im still coughing i wish i could get over it =\ But its all good. I think tonight Im going to church, I might meet up with a few friends. But this is all for now- God bless everyone + So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever |
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Well, me and wes broke up. I do believe 2 or 3 days ago? Anyways, that doesnt matter now. What matters is that we both came to realization that it was best we stayed friends. I agreed with that, but it hurt though I suppose =(. But I'm all up and at it, back on track =) Shew, tonight was a good night. I spent time with a few friends. We laughed & talked and we of course had a *little* argument over something.
I hope we get it all straightened out. I dont know if it was a good idea to go to the b/a or not. U know, as of now im 'really' trying to keep my main focus on God. Im trying to cut off as much sin as I can. Of course your friends are the worse influences on you. It is often times tempting to follow in with what they're doing. Of course we're suppose to use common sense reguardless, and we even get too caught up to recognize what we're about to get into.
Yes I kissed a good friend of mine on the forehead tonight. I feel bad about it. I dont know why. Is that so bad? But anyways, let me get myself across.
I dont want to hurt anybody ( which I havent at this point) I try to limit the things I do inorder to try to stay pure, to keep myself from falling. Which that will often times happen. But If i can prevent these things, then I will.
There are alot of changes i am making, but for the only true reason there could be and thats christ. I talked to a good friend tonight that i havent spoken to since... 2 months almost. Me and two of my friends talked tonight. We had some times to catch up with. well thats it for now, im froze to death lol.
God bless everybody. "ANd just remember, if you want change MAKE change and do it for YOURSELF. Reguardless of how others may judge u of it." |
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“Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than going to the garage makes you a car.” --Laurence J. Peter <3
Things are great=) -> 10/2/05 *
Schools tomorrow, and I have all my homework done finally -
I dont really have much to update, but life lessons. It always reminds me, that lifes a comprehensive test, and we're all tested everyday. We all must react in the right manner - |
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There are two ways to look at every situation in life: Is the cup half empty? Or is the cup half full? It is amazing how our perception
can be changed by our attitude. For example,
think about God and then look at these letters. N-O-W-H-E-R-E You can assume that God is NO WHERE. Or you can believe that
God is NOW HERE! Follow this advice and you can improve your life: Always remember that you are loved,
even when it doesn't seem like it. Believe in yourself and your values.
Don't sell out when things go wrong. Don't let anything get you down;
always bounce back up. Set goals for your future
and never settle for anything less. Realize that there are others in the world
with much bigger problems than you. Appreciate the good things in your life, and
be thankful for the time you have with your loved ones. Spend more time with your family and friends. Appreciate the simple things in life,
and don't get caught up in material things. If you follow that advice you can't go wrong! So the next time you're looking at a situation in your life: Is the cup half empty? Or is the cup half full? Be an optimist and see the cup as being half full.
Before long, your attitude will rub off on others.
You can make the world a better place
by simply making yourself a happier person. If you see someone without a smile,
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- The only thing I can really say, is its too good to be true. There's always something telling me to watch out. That Sometimes, "The obvious isnt what it seems to be." You cant always assume somethings going to happen, just because you get one side of something. You cant judge a book by its cover. . Open it up and learn what its about. See what its all about. Sometimes you may not agree with it, and other times you just cant put it down. You could never have enough of it. In other words to sum this up, what you think is there, what stands in front of you may not even be real. Sometimes, there are certain chances to take. But always remember to Follow Gods lead, and Allow him to guide you throughout your choices, to know the real faces among people. You may end up being hurt, but sometimes it's for the better. But other times..other times it can bring us joy & happiness, something we've been looking for. - Well thats all for now.
God bless Everybody
-C.L |
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*Research papers are due Next week, and the rough draft is due Friday. I only have half of it done ... Ummm, on another note, Me and wes are doing just fine * - A little stressed, but I can deal with it - I have alot on my mind, and alot to accomplish. And inorder for me to achieve these, I can only take 1 thing at a time. .. God Bless Everybody =) |
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Happiness
keeps you sweet,
Trials
keep you strong,
Sorrows
keep you human,
Failures
keep you humble,
Success
keeps you glowing,
But
only -God
keeps you going! |
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ÏñšÞÏrã±íØñ This word amazes me =)
I just "Love" the typing style haha. I wonder why lol =)~
Well, its been a good Weekend so far -
Talked to a few friends last night, I might stop by K-mart today. I might see if that skaterpunk is there haha!
-God bless everybody |
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WEll I finally went to the horse durby. Wow I won $80 bucks, cause i picked the winning horses 4 times. I was amazed! lol It was just awsome, watching them . We went and we looked at these enormous houses, with horse farms. It was incredible. Miles and miles of land out in the middle of no wheres, so peaceful, with horses everywhere you look. To me that is my dream. I saw my dream and now i just need to fulfill it. To have your own private home, having horses, having acres of land to ride and just do your own thing. To have your own destiny & doing what you love. It is magnificent to me. This has been an opportunity for me to expereience. I know GOd has allowed me to see my dream, and now I must fulfill it. I always thought Kentucky wasnt that fasinating.. But out in Lexington, its GORGEOUS!. Its any persons dream. Its a very peaceful place, people down there are friendly. Yes it was great -
It made me think alot too. And just everything down there was free spirited. I felt at ease ya know what i mean? I mean i really feel that God allowed me to go down there and experience my dream.
And now, ive just realized that hey, lifes not about pointing and picking, its about enjoying whats out there, and finding new destinations, new routes to take. Finding what makes you happy & what completes you. And thats just what I did. It just.. really amazed me. It took my breath away.
It was too good to be true for me.
I guess as of now i have a different outlook on everything. If you want something bad enough, yes you can get it. I wish i couldve brought someone along so they couldve shared it with me. But anyways, Saturday night we went to go eat, which was free thanks to moms complaining haha. After that we went on a Carriage ride. It was about 30 minutes, It was freezing down there, and I thought i was going to colapse lol. But ahh who cares, it was pretty neat. I enjoyed that.
When we got back to the hotel, me mom and stewart got ready for bed, because we had to get up early.
I changed clothes and put my pjs on, did my crunches, and finally went to sleep. I ended up waking up to stewart in the next bed snoring with mom half way off the bed haha. I laughed and then rolled over and went to sleep!
When we all decided to wake up, we went out to the Kentucky Horse Farm. They had over 50 breeds of horses. I saw the Man O' War statue. That greatest horse ever. Which won 20 out of 21, and it also was bred and had a son "battleship" . I took pictures of that, well mom did, but anyways.
After we left there, we went to some mall. Then we came back home. And oh my gosh, I had two huge energy drinks. I ended up having to stop 3 times in less then an hour to go pee haha. It was bad. I waved at old people and got them to wave and got the workers with the Coal trucks to honk pull the horns lol, and saw some kid outside throwing paper wads at his mom.
Well anyways, i have to go the h/p Now. Sorry to go.
God bless everybody =) |
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I didnt go to school today, MOm said i didnt have too- I went out tonight with a few people. yea it was fun. Heres some lyrics, I really dont have anything to say. God bless everyone! "Swing Life Away" Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost? I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
So let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand |
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